man! it feels good to finally say that out-loud... er sorta. you know what i mean.
it seems like everyone that is my age and is married already has kids and/or is working on the next one. (not that that is the reason i want one.. it just makes it really hard on me... i want to be happy for them [and i am] but it still makes me sad).
i get really depressed every month when it doesn't happen. i cant even tell you. sometimes i think it is never gonna happen for us. i wonder too if something is wrong, or if my hormones are still screwed up major or .. well.. i don't know. but my imagination will run wild with things that i think are wrong.
ok... well.. there you have it. i just couldn't keep it all cooped up inside anymore. it was driving me mad!
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Terra, I feel the same way about our adoption. I keep seeing other people blessed with babies and it's so hard to know when our time will come. Yes, we have 3 healthy boys...but my heart still has a hole in it waiting for a daughter. It's hard, I know. But it helps to have people praying for you. In the meantime, just hop along on my little adoption journey with me. Then you can see which one gets here first. :) I know people think of adoption as "second best", but having already given birth to kids I can tell you my heart is into it just as much. I would call you but I have no voice.
I am emailing you some stuff...
Get tested for Celiac, Terra. If you have it, it can affect many areas of your life.
I am so sorry :( Sharon does have a good idea though. We want to adopt one day, after we finish school. There are so many children out there that need a good home.
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